I had an epiphany the other day. Out of nowhere, I realised I don’t need to put so much pressure on myself! Simple enough right?
Wrong! I regularly see quotes about this kind of stuff and have read other people’s blogs about it, but sometimes these little light bulbs have to be switched on from the inside. For some reason, we all do it in one way or another. For some it may be the pressure to constantly earn a certain amount or to always run a certain distance in a certain time. For others it may be to have certain labels in the wardrobe, have a spotless house or an amazing garden. For me it’s the self-pressure to be making ALL our food from scratch and making perfect food choices ALL the time. FFS, Leah, take a chill pill!
The moment of not-so-ground-breaking realisation came when I was beating myself up for giving up on making my homemade coconut yoghurt. See, some things I try in my kitchen, despite my love of cooking and utilisation of traditional methods, are just plain tedious and unrewarding. My coconut yoghurt was one of them.
So it got me thinking about what I need to put emphasis on and what I need to let go of a little. Of course, in a perfect world, I would have the time (and the inclination) to be in the kitchen all day, every day, making everything from organic locally grown produce that has been picked by Mother Nature’s own hands and then delivered to my home on a golden ray of sunshine. BUT, I have 3 kids, a husband, a business and a household to run, friends to see, places to go etc etc. And because of this, I’ve conceded that I need to pick my battles!
As I don’t do so well on dairy, I was keen to try a dairy yoghurt alternative. Add to that my desire to get more fermented foods into our diet and I came up with the big idea that I MUST start making my own coconut yoghurt and it will be fun, easy, nutritious and delicious -god dam it!
So when I finally got myself a starter culture and made my first batch I felt very proud of myself for a bit and then quickly quite down on myself when I realised I didn’t enjoy making it, the kids didn’t like and to be honest, it didn’t taste that great L...
In light of these things, you’d think it would be a no brainer to just say ’yep, I’m done with that’, but in wearing all my hats (such as modern-day woman, capable mother, wellness advocate and brilliant wife), instead I gave myself a hard time for it.
But not anymore! I’ve had my epiphany and I’m running with it. If from now on I buy Coyo, instead of slopping coconut cream all over my bench in the production process and then forcing my kids to “try the yummy yoghurt”, is the world going to end? Are we going to be any less healthy? I don’t think so. In fact, I’ll probably be healthier in the long run for the stress I’ve saved myself!
So I guess what I am trying to say is simply, when it comes to life, by all means have goals and push yourself to achieve them but don’t stress the small things and definitely pick your battles. Coconut yoghurt isn’t the path for me but on the other hand I’m really loving fermenting my own kombucha and veggies so I’ll stick with that for now. I don’t have to do EVERYTHING. I’m going to focus on what I enjoy and what I’m good at and try new things along the way but without the self-pressure to do it all or nail it all first go.